Ariana Grande fans well know that the singer is one to share her emotions with her online family through good times and bad times. We get to witness her celebrating her Billboard Woman of the Year award by getting tattoos with her 93-year-old grandmother and she also shares vulnerable moments and insights, like how she believes music “saved her life.”
“About to embark on my third tour and am for sure deep as fuck in my feelings and getting my period so…. this is probably gonna be too much,” she wrote recently on Instagram. “But I just want to say how grateful I am for my life, for the people in it, for the ups and challenges, for the laughter and the pain, for this music and for the lifelong friendships I’ve made thru making it (that includes my friendship with y’all).”
Now, she’s opening up once again and sharing a brain scan of a healthy brain vs. a brain with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) on her Instagram Stories. Below that image Grande posted her own scan, seemingly showing similarities to the PTSD image. “Hilarious and terrifying. Not a joke” she captioned the images.
While Grande doesn’t specifically mention the tragic bombing at one of her concerts in Manchester, England in 2017 here, she has spoken about the psychological effects of the terrorist attack — which killed 22 people — in the past. Around the time of her first trip back to England since the Manchester benefit show she organized, Grande tweeted to a fan who asked why she hadn’t been as active on social media.
“Sry i’m really really anxious and really exhausted and jus trying to get thru the trip. hope that’s ok. hope you enjoy the performances. my priority is giving u the best performances i’m capable of,” she wrote. “I’m like really trying. It’s jus been a while since i’ve done this or been this far away from home. this was a huge test. so far not so great hehe. but i’ve loved singing for u and seeing ur faces. that part has been nice. thanks for understanding n for loving me.”
In a 2018 interview with Elle, Grande revealed some of the symptoms — both physical and emotional — she suffered after the trauma. “When I got home from tour, I had really wild dizzy spells, this feeling like I couldn’t breathe,” she said. “I would be in a good mood, fine and happy, and they would hit me out of nowhere. I’ve always had anxiety, but it had never been physical before. There were a couple of months straight where I felt so upside down.”
She’s also spoken openly about her reliance on therapy to get through Manchester, the death of her ex-boyfriend Mac Miller, and her very public breakup with Pete Davidson. “In all honesty therapy has saved my life so many times,” she wrote. “If you’re afraid to ask for help, don’t be. u don’t have to be in constant pain & u can process trauma. i’ve got a lot of work to do but it’s a start to even be aware that it’s possible.”
It’s really brave for Grande to share this vulnerable side of herself — it’s a huge step in helping to remove the stigmas surrounding mental health.
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